A. The First Day I woke up early, the air was cold even though it was summer. Although I did not realize at the time, I learned what I could be strong, and today I say this with pride, but it took some courage.
The bruises were the signs, symbols of the wounds. The meetings that I have seen it different each time they taught me to collect. I was one year less and I was aware of being in bed with anyone, it was not my bed. It was no longer Yours, Michael.
C. After I trudging up a path where every time there was someone who tried to catch me, there's always been somebody. A prison in which forced me to the absurdity of what had happened, it seemed that my wrists, tying them, I cling to something. How to let go his grip, the bond is crumbling, yielded, and I sank into the darkness.
confused and uncertain, I felt trapped, I had the opportunity to start over, but rebuilding was a burden I did not want to have.
C. Fu first to give me a new name, I dubbed A., staring in a while I did not know a different identity. I told her, I called and I said, it seemed that everything could spin smoothly. It seemed to me ... I got away, I kept telling him, I had promised.
But A. was a name that weighed too much because I could support it, not me, I was not never been and never would have been different, I continued to hold up weight. Respond to the sound as soon as I heard, A. I turned around and called me like an animal trained. The vocal sounds were open and sweet, an ambiguous name as Cherry, who called me a whore and saint, but in the meantime I was always slipping away from me, until one day, C. opened his hand and staring at my eyes full of panic, let me go.
could not do anything else, that name does not belong to me, I did not belong to anyone, I kept falling into a ravine. Call feel like I was not, was a piercing pain in my chest, which was putting a harpoon in my flesh, and he encouraged me to follow him, to respond to command, because I was trying to give me a sense or, at least, retrieve one. Only the pain kept me back, to Thee, my flesh tearing, over and over again with my soul, and the relationship with other supervened C. .
A. was the first of the new powers, the designation of more effective, however, the only who has held until your return. I am bound to you and a day of custody, repaid the respect that I kept for C..
But I remember when it was in S. to talk to me, all the time that we met Sophie had continued to state, because if I did not exist as I continued to ignore me, I denied who I was because I could no longer be. Then S. came up to me, it was a Tuesday, and as if the pain was a necessary element for power, while a needle pierced my skin, I said that from that moment I would be Ismas.
Ismas Its small, its bitch. And the boss is a bitch and named, since where the take-over.
Going memory in memory, I know that I said to Anna, took time one night and nobody knew.
Basically I changed the name change as a dress, I looked in the mirror and not thought that that was my body. I was like outside of me, every time I reflected that I saw a stranger looking at me, an unknown woman living my life.
I could not wait, I wore a dress and I pulled straight, meaning he would stop sinking. It took me time to stop gasping, after a while 'I are aware of my absence as well as yours.
Now, more than a year later, after several months together, reflect on the ability to transform that we have, to reduce us to nothing but to leave undisturbed to float through the sea and rocks, without drowning. I think of all the names and opened my eyes, I see what happened, and it terrifies me the immensity, while I admire the calm that has brought me.
Michael, I learned to hear how you can get away from the shore, and it's like getting up one morning and discover that their eyes can see more of before.
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